so anyway i've got to do some stuff, get cap and gown, senior ring, sign up for act(s) and sat(s), and apply to some colleges. and only now do i realize how it's so weird that i've never known love. for some reason i see myself in the future doing great... but i've no one to share my life with. i just think i'll meet some guy who only wants my body in some club i hardly ever go to. then ultimatley end up getting, murdered, raped, robbed, beat up, and shit like that. i find so odd that some people can find love, it's so taboo for me. not that i fear rejection, but i just wish i would find a someone who would love me and i would love him. but then again i think about how i am really naive about those things and the like. maybe i wouldn't miss out on alot if i stayed alone. afterall a relationship would cut into all the things i do. i don't know which one is worse, having no one and doing everything i like, or being with some one who loves me but never having time to do anything. time is my worst enemy.