nothin taboo about finding love, for most thats how it happens. i remember when i used to feel similar to how you did, unsure if i would find anyone feeling alone and cold even when it was warm, just something missing deep inside. i had alot of mixed feelings when the thought of a "meaningful relationship" popped in my head, and i thought it would just be better to do my own thing and if i got with someone i wouldn't be able to be me. Well one day out of nowhere i found someone and it hit me like a train man lol i've been with him for almost two years now and i love him like no other and i know he feels the same way about me, but the cool thing is that being together didnt cut into the things i love to do, because he loves most of the same shit too and we wind up doing everything together, we've never been happier. You just gotta be patient and you will find someone right for you whether you like it or not lol just remember everything happens for a reason and no matter what; everything will be ok :)
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