Seriously I'm about to start crying at this point. I want to talk to you. Badly. *sighs* I really want to talk to you. Maybe, then everything can go back to normal (normal being 15/16 months ago) I don't know... Is this even the right thing to do? Or am I just going to land myself in even more fucking pain then the first time. Because I can't do that again. I REALLY can't do that again. and personally I really don't want to... I hate not being able to cry unless my heart is completely crushed. Just like that dreadful day in September... What I hate though... is that I cried so much that day that my eyes hurt... and it felt AMAZING... in it's own freaky aspect... I really hate this.