I can't talk to my dad anymore. If I do he'll just get upset because I can't trust him to make the money for my surgery on time. I go to him with everything. I don't know what to do now.
I'm going nuts. I don't know if I could make the money I need on time if I had started two jobs yesterday. Nobody has called me back yet and I'm not expecting anyone to... I need this surgery forever ago. I don't know if I can wait five months let alone any longer than that and it scares me to think that I may have to wait longer than that. I don't know if I could handle that, I've just been getting worse and worse and worse and how I've gone this long without hurting myself is a complete mystery to me.
Sorry... I just...