so anyway... we got back to texas today! this whole week has been very interesting. although i'm worried about my mom, she can't use the "death machine" (as i call it). i've vowed never to ride it again, even if it gets fixed and that's questionable since there are two factors keeping her from affording it. if i may go off topic, i just need some opinions. halfway throught the trip in the Toyota i've started having "mini freakouts" in where i just see it all happen again. i start to shake and start bargaining with god pleading for him to spare me. my mom and dad don't really know about that. i also at some points when sitting at a restaurant to eat i would feel a speeding sensation like if i'm in the "death machine" again. i really think i need help. but for now i'll just do some reflecting and relaxing at home. opinions are welcome.