I've noticed something about my friendships; I'm nothing more than a surrogate boyfriend.

Every single close friendship I've had has followed this pattern. I befriend some girl who's lonely, and even though it is completely platonic, it becomes like a fucked up role playing exercise.

But it always ends the same; I get dumped when they find an actual boyfriend. The first time this happened, it took at least a month or two, but this recent one took two weeks.

It's fucked up too, because there's always this rebound period where I have to find a new group to hang out with, because all of my friends where her friends too.

Like right now.

However, on the bright side:

1)I still have one best friend I know I can rely on.

2)College= Blank Slate

3)It wasn't a real relationship; I haven't had my heart broken yet.