this isn't about a relationship. a job. or something so outrageous and spontaneous.
this is about me getting (or trying to) back into writing.
a friend of mine has been pushing me to get back into writing because back in our sophomore class of health/guidance, everyone knew thats what i wanted to do and i wrote all the time back then.
but i stopped.
and i was reminded of it when me and him got back into contact and he's been pushing me back into what i wanted to do.
it's just that...i'm stuck.
idk what to write about and i'm scared. honestly scared.
writing was my outlet.
an outlet to let things flow.
let things out and just share them with the world (or whoever'd read it).
but i stopped.
i lost the motivation.
i lost the need to share my feelings or the things around me.

i watched Letter's to Juliet tonight with a couple of friends and her motivation to share the story of love...inspired me to try.
to try and get back into what i loved to do.

sigh.

regret; feel sad. repentant, or disappointed over (something that has happened or been done).

regret. it is a word that shouldn't be said or thought. life is to be lived without regrets or what ifs. but it seems like that it's the most popular thing in this generation in love, in finance, in family, and in friends. how can we live when everything we do is what we don't want to do? why can't that guy who's been in love with his best friend for 5 years tell her how he feels instead of watching her walk away with a guy that doesn't understand her and how she feels? why can't a girl look into her father's eyes and say that she loves him despite the things she's done in the past and not get dismissed and thrown out?
i understand that we all have regrets and has done something that we were never proud of but i believe that life was given to us to make these mistakes and learn from them. take away the lessons of life from them and correct them for our future and be thankful that they happened, but why is it so hard not to make the right decisions the first time?

idk where i was going with this...it's 1:50am.
i can't sleep.
:(