I'm reading a book called the God Box and it's really making me think about things differently. I always thought that you could never be gay and chrisitan, but now I'm not so sure.
It's kind of a big deal for me because my family is very conservative and Christian. They know I'm gay, but they're not exactly pleased with the idea by any stretch of the imagination. I was raised to believe in God, and I do, but it's hard to know if you can be a gay christian. So I've tried to give up being gay, but that is way too hard and it hurts way too much. But now I'm reading this book and it's pretty much counteracting everything that makes people think homosexuality is a sin.
Somehow me and my mom got into a conversation about me being gay out of nowhere. Which is seriously progress. She said she wanted me to know that if I still "chose" to be gay when I was older she could accept it and she wouldn't try to change me, but right now she can't give support while I'm a minor. It gave me hope. But then I asked her if I could be both gay and christian and she came up with this whole story about it. She said:
"Okay, well say me and your father bought you a jeep for your birthday and said you get to keep it if you help more aorund the house and do the dishes and clean your room and be home by 11 etc. If you blatanly defy that and don't do any of it, I'm going to take away the jeep. God will take away his blessings if you are gay and christian because you're living in sin."
Me: "Well... what if i do everything except clean my room? Everything else i do perfectly I'm just not ashamed of my room to clean it up."
Her: "I don't think you're getting it."
No mother, YOU are not getting it.
Anyway.. I'm trying to find some gay singers and bands, anyone got any??