Well, in case you didn't notice, my computer was taken away again. I left another empty yogurt cup in my room. They gave my laptop back on Thursday, with no Internet, so I could write a report. Now they've reconnected the Internet. Now all I need is my desktop computer so I can play Civilization III (All my Civ files are on there!)

But that's not what's unfair.

Well, I may not have been able to post anyways. I have been extremely busy the past few days. The trimester ended yesterday, and I spent the past week working my ass off to get all my work in. I had a few assignments that I really needed to turn in, and I might not have done them, or I might have done them and just lost them.
And so, I was searching through my organization system, which I like to call a bureaucratic tyranny gone Anarchy.
It's just a big clump of papers.
Then I got really tired. I've been exhausted the past few days too. I was in like perpetual headache mode.
But, I just got up from 9 hours of heaven. I got a lot of sleep last night. Not as much as I wished, but I still can't sleep THAT well... I don't know why.

That's not what's unfair either though. I totally deserved that.

I just realized at swimming that there are people who don't work NEARLY as hard as I do, and yet they're still catching up to me. Like Nicole, she doesn't work as hard as she should. She mostly has natural talent. And Chris, he works hard, but only when he shows up, because he doesn't come as often as he should either.
And then I'm there 5 days a week, and I haven't missed a set in months, and I do dryland for a half hour at night, and I swim at the Y on the weekends.
That's unfair.
But wait, not really, actually. I didn't always work this hard. I was lazy for years, and then dropping time left and right. I guess they get that too. But they WILL hit a wall. I know it. Then they'll have to work harder to get faster, just like me.

But it still does seem unfair. So many things are working against me dropping time right now.
I'm changing technique to much better form, which will slow me down temporarily.
I think I'm just on a wall, so even if I wasn't changing technique I'd be staying where I was anyway.
I never started swimming until when I was 10. A lot of really fast people have been doing it since 4.
I'm too small. I've never been that tall, or muscular. I can see my abs without flexing, but the really fast guys are MONSTERS. If they're 13, they look 16, and they're freakishly tall and strong.
When I did start swimming, I was lazy for years.

And so, I predict that soon I will have a monstrous improvement. When my new technique kicks in, and I break this wall, and I grow some, and my working hard also kicks in, I think I'll BOOK in the pool.