Reading textbooks is like taking a knife to your imagination.

The words crawl on the page like insects, until they chew your brain out. Reading about the history of New Zealand isn't boring, but it also isn't very engaging. I feel more knowledgeable, but I do not feel better empowered to synthesise with my mind. Utilitarianism in philosophy class is interesting, it's applicable, but they are still bound by rules, they are normative theories to be applied - in a almost fixed and logical way.

So that's why I'm glad I changed one of my papers. I changed critical thinking to global literature. Right now we're reading The South Sea Tales - or supposed to be (and then seven more novels to go). But it's a lot more abstract - it shows instead of tells. It has layers. I hope it keeps the creative part of me alive while I wade through all the law and politcs and philosophy reading.

I hope everyone had a good weekend. I'm not too sure who reads or cares about my journals anymore, but I still wish that to all of you. Most of the time I just use this as an actual journal anyway - I'm interacting with the words and they're interacting with me. I have a god-like relationship with these sentences I create. I wish, write, perhaps even feel what I please. I pretend this is a private place where I am in control.

College (yes, I decided to call it college instead of university, although we call it university here in New Zealand) so far has been pretty relaxed compared to my expectations. But orientation week is officially over - this week will be hectic. Less than 30% of law students make it to second year - I really have to work my butts off.

I've made some new friends at college too (even some arrogant ones in my politics and law lectures!). Otherwise it was mostly renewing a lot of friendships, or building on the relationship with acquaintances. But I'm satisfied with the progress I'm making at uni - satisfied only because I have very high expectations. There're way too many people I already know in my lectures... which makes meeting new people hard. I did join the debating society, management consulting club, united nations youth association and law students association. I might join the "glee club" too... just to try and make the singing side of me survive. There's no way I can join musicals or drama productions like I did in high school though - I'd explode with stress.

And... I still haven't joined the gay and lesbian club in College. Although a second-year-law-student friend of mine did say if I'm into gay activism he knows the right people on campus and in Auckland. That's pretty awesome. I'll have to see if I explode with stress first though.

Oh yeah, and I totally stopped texting ice cream parlour boy. Why do I get bored so easily (nothing happened I just got bored). These days it takes a lot to get me all excited. Oh, and I talked to some cute guy on the bus. He has a sexy German accent... except he's actually from the Czech Republic. I still have no idea how to say his name. He lives 15 minutes down the road. I got his facebook, but found out he's "interested in women". But being the confusing European he is he asked me to join the local gym with him. Gay or European? Yes, that's right... it's hard to guarantee.