"We'll Carry on!!!" ~ Welcome to the black parade. (now u got to think of this soulfully. singing it out with all the desperation and determination of its meaning.)

Its been a minute. I went on vacation and had unreliable internet connection. Now im back at school and im like ehh. dont really want to be there. Im hurting. Im soo confused and im just too tired to find the answers. it doesnt matter. she doesnt care. i heard once when u dont know what to do or say, u do nothing at all. i shall do that and go on with life and im sure the pain will subside like it always does for that person. it just makes me mad that she wont see that she was wrong. she was the self centered one. thats all that just makes me mad.

Today, since i didnt go to school yesterday, i didnt walk with her to class. i didnt want to see her. at lunch i almost sat with other people but i didnt want to cause a scene going back to the table to get my stuff. so i sat there and faced the music. my friend k was excited to see me and couldnt wait till i got out of the line to hug me and said, the best part of her day was that i was now back at school. lindsey said hi, feels like forever since i been there and now that im back the sex jokes will ensue. and kinsey was like hi. this girl d just nodded to my existance and dk, she waited for me to say hi and i didnt and than she did and i said hi back. and when the bell rang for lunch i was gone.

My hope wont die, that maybe she will see what she did and that our friendship is worth saving on her behalf. they are on mine and im willing to try if she does but im not going to start it and im not going to acknowledge her as a friend. she now just a person, i see in the hall and life moves on...

Im seriously ready to start anew at college.
Have a good day!! :)