I'm still annoyed I didn't volunteer for student rep for my philosophy lecture. One of the girls totally sucks at pubicly speaking and doesn't deserve it. It ruins a lot of my chances of meeting new people. But I mean, student rep isn't that important anyway. It just looks good on a CV, I'm going to keep telling me that. I"m still very annoyed.

I'm on the student rep comittee for my law class though. I might go for student rep for my politics lecture. I'm also considering going for the first year student representative for the debating society. I'm just way too ambitious. God I hate being a perfectionist.

I went to the opening night of the debating society. Apparently they said 600 people signed up. But I was talking to some new people and they say only about 100 actually commit. I met around twenty something people tonight. I'm quite proud of myself. That's a very good effort - a lot of them are doing law too - and it really helps with getting through to second year and networking. If I do go for rep for the debating society, I think I have very good support. I also know many of the eight debating executives this year before I even joined (two from my school, two from adjudicating me in advanced debating - they remember me, one from model united nations - she won the year before I won, one other who is my friend's brother, and another who is a friend's friend through maths camp). I guess committing to all these things in high school actually paid off. I have such strong and awesome connections already even though I'm just a freshman at university.

I also went back to my high school to see teachers. I can't believe how many people still remember me - even ran up to me. I miss them so much. I talked to the scholars group about national scholarship exams, and also collected my year book. I also saw my favourite teacher who has retired but happened to be back too. I love her so much. She's the one who I can talk to about anything - even some of the stuff I don't even want to post on here. Anyways, today has been an awesome day. I met a of people - and it's awesome.

I just wish I wasn't such a perfectionist. I want EVERYTHING. I wish I wasn't like that. I've accomplished so much. I'm blessed with so many skills. Yet I want more. God I'm selfish. No, I'm just a bloody ambitious perfectionist.