So I came second in the running for first year rep for the debating society at the top university in New Zealand. It does suck, but I'm going to have to accept it. I don't like it when people come up to me and say "nah I heard they had *insert winning's girls name* in a bag - you should've won" - because frankly I don't know if a) that is true and b) I didn't win so it just annoys me more. I do know most of the executives though and most came up and congratulated me anyway. Some voted for me, and another exec said I was "very close". Either way I've put my name out there - it was definitely the funniest speech (hey it's hard to impress 600 people) - so most people do know me at least which is good. I think the other girl deserves it though. She's represented New Zealand at the World Debating Championship, which I'm aiming for this year - but she definitely has more experience. Although I'd like to convince myself the election was rigged for that girl (because so many people kept sewing those ideas in my head), I'm going to resist them. I tell everyone who comes up to me "Nah, she definitely deserves it". I also shook her hand and said congratulations - as I should. Frankly, she is a better speaker (perhaps the best in New Zealand after my friend A) and she did offer a lot more practical ideas (I was taking the piss almost...) So either way, she's going to have my support, I'm just very gutted - and I guess I deserve to be - for a little while.

It's just that my very good friend A, went down to Wellington and got elected as the first year rep for the second best university in New Zealand. It just would've been amazing if I got elected as well.

Oh well, I'm just to ambitious. I should really focus on my studies. At least the plus side is - I don't have to spend 10 hours each week organising things - which is the minimum time they said is required.

I hate being a perfectionist.