Just tired i am. mentally mostly and than im lazy and i dont get enough sleep. its starting to affect anything trying to get done. Seriously.

I need to quit talking about what i need to do and do it. like study for sat, start research paper, and idk just make better habits...hmmm maybe i should take up what my coach said. he said we should eat healthy...im sorry to say i dont even know what that means. horrible.
Tomorrow, crew gets voted for. im seriously nervous. i mean we dont find out till friday but still tomorrow, people vote and find out who is trying out and state their opinions. so ehh...
Ugh! panda has been nerve wrecking lately. she is just acting rude for no reason lately and its starting to get annoying. really annoying. like i would say hi to her (just seeing her for the first time that day) and she was just give me this no, look. and shake her head yet in about two hours when we see each other again, she is trying to talk to me about something and than wants to get mad when i dont want to hear. AND THAN megan, ugh she is sooo wrapped up in her boys or something. after being friends for 4 and half years. and for like 3 of those not being able to hang out. now that we have chances, she never wants too.
Im like do u guys not understand, i lost my hanging out bestfriend and need support to get through that. i mean dk was the person i could hang out with all the time and was comfortable with. now i got to hang with people im not and build relationships....
On that note, im actually good at that. ive been visiting this other table and making friends with them and i soon am ready to take the next step and ask them to go bowling....
Uhhh i need sleep. Night. :)