
A flutter of snow (just now) left the sky and the the street and the tops of the cars looking silver. Before that, when the snow started- just as I opened the currtains- the sky was electric blue.
When the world is so beautiful, even on an ordinary street, it's like someone is pouring water into my ribcage and I think I'll burst from its pressure. It's not exactly nice.
Work last night- had to help on the steak and oyster bar, which was fine because it was quiet and I don't mind it too much if it's not busy.
But to be honest I still prefer just working on the fish counter; there you just have to do one thing at a time, but when you're serving people their dinners you have to do everything at once. And anyway, having a steak and oyster bar in a supermarket is so pretentious.
I didn't go swimmming- I could have gone before class, but I decided not to. But it means by the end of the day I felt snappish and my limbs felt like they didn't fit. Anyway, I'm going in a minute when the pool opens for daytime lane swimming.
Why are programs about buying and selling houses to satisfying to watch?
I'm sitting in the big armchair, with a cup of coffee, thinking about doing some work and actually just watching property shows.
Also, no-one has ever had the opportunity to forget it's Valentines Day. (thankyou, signs in shop windows, signs in the fridges, signs on the shelves, signs on the underground, signs in the underpass).
Also- since most of you are ones- why are Americans so weird? Probably not all Americans, maybe just the ones abroad who work in Canary Wharf. And the ones on the telly.
Why is it they have something so strangely volitile in their soul, that the rest of their character is tightly stretched over as if their afraid of it? Even though (most of them) are nice; friendlier than the English. They're so stretched so tightly that they're almost transparent.
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I don't understand how the
I don't understand how the beauty could be bad- But I know what you mean about it being so beautiful at simple places.
And us Ammeries are weird because we all wanna fit in by being individualists!
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There isn't a sharp line dividing humans from the rest of the animal kingdom. It's a very wuzzie line...and it's getting wuzzier all the time. - Jane Goodall.
Steak and oyster bars are
Steak and oyster bars are preternaturally awkward places. They're never right to be where they are- too pretentious, too common, too tacky, too serious, too much, too little. I think it's the oysters. Those quirky mollusc with quirky shells and outrageous looks, that just happen to be delicious, can't be placed anywhere but in a place of outrageous quirkiness, I think. There's something almost obscene with oysters. Almost. Of course, I tend to think and mull and muse about stuff like mollusc way too much. Train stations feel like a good place for an oyster bar, in my opinion. Gloomy, quaint, and desolate train stations. Oxford comas are also preternaturally awkward, aren't they?
" . . . The sun does not shine upon this fair earth to meet frowning eyes, depend upon it." Charles Dickens
Hmm...
I don't if I can accurately answer your question about Americans, because I've never noticed this tension you describe. Though it might have something to do with culture. Our media seems to put forth the idea that acting aggressively is an extremely desirable trait. I mean, compare "Inspector Lynley" with shows like CSI. It's almost like a lot of Americans go out of their way not to be subtle.
Well...
I am definitely not an expert on America or American culture beyond what I know from living it and being one. Perhaps part of it has to do with a general tendency to repress or suppress aspects of oneself, certain thoughts, feelings, or behaviors despite the displayed societal or media image of being free and unrestricted.
It's as if underneath there's this almost unbearable force or power and intensity some feel is best left bound and chained. But yet this is equally true across several cultures so my answer is indubitably broad.
Maybe its stress? I swear to
Maybe its stress?
I swear to the Lord, I still can't see, why Democracy means, everybody but me.
- Langston Hughes