I finally came out to my dad.
He blocked everything on my computer. I had to tell him why I needed to come here. So I had to tell him I was gay.
He had to have a discussion with me. He said he loved me for who I was, and it was how it was. He also said he had known for a while. He just picked it up. He said he wouldn't tell my mom, but if I needed his help for doing so, that he would help. It'll probably take me a while for that. I imagine she'll have a worse reaction, and I need to wait for a less stressed and more energetic period in my life. I have no time or energy to deal with her.
For some reason, I continue to want to cry. I have not been very successful in holding back tears.
I have a headache, still want to cry, and have maybe another hour of homework. Tonight is going to fucking SUCK.
I'm sure I'll feel better after I get a good nights sleep. Then, I have swimming tommorow, which oddly enough I CAN'T WAIT FOR even though I was in the pool 3 hours ago. Swimming is so cool. Then I have a swim meet on Bainbridge Island, and the whole team is staying in the same hotel, so we all get to stay together. We have fun.
I feel like shit now, but tommorow, the day after, and the weekend are looking up. Ooh, and the weekend after next we go the Grand Canyon for backpacking. Love it.
I feel better already.
Though I still want to cry...