Sometimes I feel like I could be evil...

swimmerguy's picture

Today, in Orchestra, we were organizing a spaghetti auction tommorow. We were deciding who would get jobs. Only a few people could get the good jobs, Italian Sodas and Desserts, and people would always try to avoid Sanitation.
There was only one Italian Sodas job left, and I still didn't have a job. A lot of people started asking for the job.
Normally, I would be okay with getting a bad job, but I was tired, and not in an incredibly good mood.
So when she asked me what job I wanted, I said "You can just sign me up for anything. It doesn't matter to me". Then she said "I think you'd look good in Italian Sodas".

If you've seen the last season of Survivor, I feel like I could be Russel.
I don't like using social manipulation, even extremely simple reverse phsycology like I used here.

I wanted to test if I was straight, so I picked out some girl, and then I manipulated her. She later asked me out, and became girlfriend #3.
I used her as just some test of straightness, and hurt us both. I played with her.

However, can you call someone bad if they WANT to be good, and they care if they're good, can you really call them bad?

It depends on whether or not you believe in free will. Are some people pre disposed towards being bad, and to be good they have to cover that up? Well, how can they bad if they care about being bad and want to be good?

In case you're wondering, I don't actually think I'm evil. I care about people, truly. I made a few mistakes, and so have we all.
However, manipulation is not what I believe to be my worst trait. I'll talk about that later...

Comments

patnelsonchilds's picture

Hmm

Expressing no preference was being manipulative? If that's the case, and asking for the good job is being selfish, that leaves masochistically demanding the crappiest job as your only virtuous option. I think you might be being a bit overly critical of yourself.

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ferrets's picture

hmmmm

well chad dear, i crave to put ppl to the test to. ive considered asking my teacher on a day i was sick to tell the class i had died so i could judge the reaction. its human nature to play games with other ppl.

if your ever super sad, just rember, you could have been a blowjob.

elph's picture

I Could Never Envisage...

...your being evil, except by sheer accident... and that shouldn't count!

btw... Just curious... Manipulation not your worst? Should I guess?

Wishing you all the best this weekend!