"hmm thats right...and i shed my skin tonight but my fangs are hard to hide" ~ avenged sevenfold

Epic failure. Epic.
Today was like usual nothing out of the ordinary. life is life. i felt very calm in that. i felt great and for once i didn't want it to rain. Its rain for like 3 weeks straight here, if its not raining, its gloomy lookin. So what did i fail at?...im not quite sure but i know i failed my earlier mood. Its pretty simple...i was talking to dk and i was telling her about how i had talk to panda and megan about how i felt towards her lately and how i was upset that they were getting annoyed about me always complaining about it when i listen to them complain for weeks about everything and somehow she went off the deep end. i guess she must have felt some type a way about it even though she said she wasnt mad. i tried to tell her the outcome, about how they said, i should let go and i said no cuz i dont let go easily and well that got me a "i could let you go in a second" response from her.
How bad did that hurt? well have u ever felt ur heart get cut into two than chuck norris kicked into space. Well putting chuck norris name in there lets you know how bad it hurt. So yeah, i couldnt say anything. My chest felt like it was about to explode into a million pieces.

Do you guys think being able to let go of someone so quickly is equivalent to not caring about them? I think it does because if you care about someone and tell them you love them; wouldnt some part of u have a problem with letting them go? or am i just all jacked up in the head.

Well to go on with the convo; it ended with me not being able to say anything and she telling me i couldnt handle the truth and she would no longer tell me it. Than me getting mad about that and telling her, i handled it and accept it and than something something blah blah blah...it ended.
I colored for sometime and let the pain slide away but i wish it back cuz one, i feel nothing now and two, it hurts the most when pains new and fresh.
I don't know what to do and i don't know why im searching for a answer, it doesn't matter, she doesn't care and i feel worthless now because how easily it seems people are able to let go of me.
Goodnight.