I wouldn't really advise reading this.

How do you know that you will love someone? I know it is normaly the other way around, but what if you can't feel love? Like you can feel every other possible emotion except sexual/romanic love?
Like you can feel fawning love. You can feel family love. Im sure that my journal a couple jounals back was REALLY wierd seeming but I wrote it for myself so that I could remeber the day (or alteast the day after the night ) when I first ever experenced those feelings. I thought wow. That is awesome. But now I find it scary. What if this is an abnormality? What if I never feel that way again?
I only found one person that I "liked" enough to make a huge deal over it and even then it was a fawning thing. Be near me. Talk to me. Even I want you to think of me. I still react when I am touched (in a good way). I never realized that you could actually want someone. I just thought that people picked out someone randomly, or just liked somoene passivly (as in sex was just whatever a good experence that you want) I never realized that you could actually really want someone. To make them feel good even if you don't. I knew it existed and thought that I knew what it was, but I guess not.