Good news, bad news.

12 January, 2010 - 7:02am — Super Duck

Good: I went an entire French class without being touched or poked! :D Yaaay!

Great-grandmother lived.

We might actually do something fun for art class at school tomorrow. Wow. (Although I'm sure my classmates will manage to fuck it up with their collective stupidity...)

Bad: There are many tests. Tomorrow I have 2, and my entire class failed one today because our idiot teacher did not prepare us properly. :D

Today was not long enough to accomplish all the crap I needed to get done.

I am thirsty, although that is easily remedied. I just don't feel like getting up.

And now the main thing...

Does anyone else have this awful fear that they are going to be alone forever and that no one will ever love them? I have that fear... I just feel like I am unworthy of love. I honestly can't see why anyone would ever love me unless I get rich or something. I have incredibly low self-esteem. I mean, I'm awkward, I'm lame, I'm shy, I have anxiety issues, and I'm not really good at anything. Hell, I'm not even attractive. At all. I'm super ugly, in fact. I am probably going to die a virgin, alone, with only one dog and three cats for company, and having spent my entire life in love with women who would never think of me that way.

I suck at talking to people. It has been forever since I've spoken with some of the people who matter the most to me. I don't know how to act in new social situations. I don't know how to do anything. I'm just a stupid Super Duck.

Ugh, I had better be a rich and stupid Super Duck... :(

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12 January, 2010 - 7:17am — rainforestchild

aww believe me you won't die

aww believe me you won't die a virgin haha and I'm sure you are not ugly. There are only a few people in this world who are truly ugly and that is only because they are mean and have cruel personalities

I totally get what you mean about being socially awkward as well. I cannot carry out a conversation with anyone to save my life haha, but that's ok I think other people like to talk a lot about themselves and all you have to do is ask them questions.

HAve fun in art!

12 January, 2010 - 7:30am — Super Duck

Yeah, I think I'm being

Yeah, I think I'm being slightly overdramatic. Haha. I haven't really felt all that great today, though...

I'm glad I'm not the only socially awkward person. Part of the reason I fail at conversations is because I'm scared I'll ask something offensive or dumb or I'll talk too long or gah... Who knew socializing was so difficult?

And I shall try! Art is usually fun when the teacher is in a decent mood.

12 January, 2010 - 7:50am — swimmerguy

I hear ya

Sometimes I think I might never find someone whom fits me.
And I usually don't care about looks AS much, as a date just because the person is hot is just 2 people getting mutually horny about each other.
It doesn't work DX
Although, in my case, I might just have to take what I can get. I've never kissed a boy, and I once had a kiss on the lips from a girl during a game of spin the bottle.

But, nothing to do about it but to keep looking, until you find someone. Never get yourself down, because doing that makes you know better. It actually makes you a LESS likeable person, and therefore more reason to have low self esteem.

"I bust mine so I can kick yours" ~ design on a swimming t-shirt

12 January, 2010 - 2:44pm — Super Duck

But the thing is, I'm afraid

But the thing is, I'm afraid I will never be able to "take what I can get" because I won't "get" anything. D: I dunno... I know I'm being way too negative; I've just kind of felt bad lately.

12 January, 2010 - 7:55am — jeff

Aww...

You don't have to die a virgin. That's why there are prostitutes.

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

12 January, 2010 - 2:41pm — Super Duck

Thanks, Jeff. D:

13 January, 2010 - 3:11am — carmen143

Well...

I've seen pics on Facebook and you are beautiful. Don't lie! Lol.

And I know its cliche and everything but there is someone out there for you.

Just wait for college. LESBIANS FOR EVERYONE!!! WHEE!!!!!

<3 FLAME ON! <3

13 January, 2010 - 5:46am — Super Duck

Hehe, thanks. :p I guess

Hehe, thanks. :p

I guess was just in one of my low moods last night... I feel a lot better today.

And yes, college will be an epic win! Ahh, I can't wait...

13 January, 2010 - 4:54am — ferrets

college smaledge

just get some by putting them into a drugged sleep

Half a league half a league,
Half a league onward,
All in the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred:
'Forward, the Light Brigade!
Charge for the guns' he said:
Into the valley of Death
Rode the six hundred.

'Forward, the Light Brigade!'

13 January, 2010 - 5:42am — Super Duck

I'm not that desperate...

I'm not that desperate... yet. D:

13 January, 2010 - 5:23am — Wolfcry

. . . of course Ferrets woud

. . . of course Ferrets woud sugest drugs...

I know what you mean about the alone thing, but then I come on here to a pm from Ferrets and lots of posts from all you guys and I remember I am an uncle to 5 rainbow colored rubber ducks(yes jeffypooh I remember BD and JMY's children) and that we all love eachother.

"Oh what tangled webs we weave, When we practice to deceive. I know you well, Actions and motives. Bear the cross, wear the crown, it's just some evil you can't bleed out. Hell has to notice, Your actions and motives." 10 Years, Actions And Motives

13 January, 2010 - 5:45am — Super Duck

Yeah, I'm definitely glad to

Yeah, I'm definitely glad to have Oasis and all of my internet friends!

13 January, 2010 - 5:47am — Wolfcry

You are NOT just a friend to

You are NOT just a friend to me. I love you like a brother!

13 January, 2010 - 6:03am — jeff

Err...

Super Duck = female, no?

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"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

13 January, 2010 - 6:12am — Wolfcry

lol its a sort of joke I

lol its a sort of joke I share with my "twin" Risikah. She loves me like a sister(I'm gay), and I love her like a brother(she is Bi, but REALLY tom-boyish). see, jeff, you our the oasian's mom, and Pat is our amazingly awesome dad.