Good: I went an entire French class without being touched or poked! :D Yaaay!
We might actually do something fun for art class at school tomorrow. Wow. (Although I'm sure my classmates will manage to fuck it up with their collective stupidity...)
Bad: There are many tests. Tomorrow I have 2, and my entire class failed one today because our idiot teacher did not prepare us properly. :D
Today was not long enough to accomplish all the crap I needed to get done.
I am thirsty, although that is easily remedied. I just don't feel like getting up.
And now the main thing...
Does anyone else have this awful fear that they are going to be alone forever and that no one will ever love them? I have that fear... I just feel like I am unworthy of love. I honestly can't see why anyone would ever love me unless I get rich or something. I have incredibly low self-esteem. I mean, I'm awkward, I'm lame, I'm shy, I have anxiety issues, and I'm not really good at anything. Hell, I'm not even attractive. At all. I'm super ugly, in fact. I am probably going to die a virgin, alone, with only one dog and three cats for company, and having spent my entire life in love with women who would never think of me that way.
I suck at talking to people. It has been forever since I've spoken with some of the people who matter the most to me. I don't know how to act in new social situations. I don't know how to do anything. I'm just a stupid Super Duck.
Ugh, I had better be a rich and stupid Super Duck... :(