Um, so I'm sufficiently drunk take a journal entry

Went to town today
there was for a birthday dinner
Also did some ceroc dancing. I'm gettin there. actually im shit

Afterwards they all went back to the birthday girl's place
I didn't feel like going too tired and having a big night tomorrow
Instead went to the gay bar on k road. Cause i didn't wana go home yet. Wednesday's karaoke night. Not many people.. about ten only (mind you this was early). It's always packed on friday and saturday. but hey karaoke's not too bad. Most of them are like oldish men in their 30s or 40s. So I ended up talkin to the bartender. his name's wazza. How cool's that. i think i was too drunk to really care bout what's goin on. But i enjoyed myself. he's very friendly

i think i might go back more and more
ok it's because i'm drunk but i'm having one of those paranoid sessions
i need to exercise more
i'm on a diet but i broke my diet by drinkin at the bar. some guy bought me a drink. i thot it rude but i wanted to go home so i left

but seriously i'm like so fat even though i'm not. i don't even understand. my friends say i'm the furthest thing from fat. they get offended when i complain bout it. chekd my bmi i'm almost underweight actualy but supposedly stil in the normal range.. but i gues that's not so acurate. i'm goin on a diet. i didn't eat my fries for my combo tonight. neither the skin of the chiken. and i asked for water instead. um i feel fat even though people say i'm not. i don't wana be ano but i don't quite understand whta's goin on. i've also been runnin 40 minutes a day and yesterday i swam 46 lengths even tho i haven't swam since physid class three years ago (which still pales in comparison compared to swimmerguy...). but i mean, exercise never hurts

oh and tonight ther were like two other gay guys at the birthday dinner. they're younger than me, one of them used to like me, and the other bi guy recently came out (and shocked nobody). lol i piked on him oh wel i told him it was because you have to be initiated into the gay worlllld. they're nt reli my type but hey the more gay friends the more fabulous

like three girs at the dinner tonght said they'd definitely do me if i wasn't gay (considering there's also two other gay guys at the table hah!). i gues that's a big compliment. at the ceroc class friend told me i looked reli hot. mayb it's cause of my tan at the beach. but i'm stil not satisfied with my appearance... man i thrive on these compliments, but again i need to feed off them al the time. god im very very very vain

oh and i have a date for sunday
yes i do
a twenty something year old i can't remember
and there's a mean party on friday
pool party. and there's gona be a bouncy castle too
um gota exercise more
and no more drinking! damnit all that exercise

hm love you all! catch ya all later!