Alright, I can't watch this anymore. You seriously need to reexamine yourself.
If someone tells you that you're a bad person to your face, you should never speak to that person again. It isn't worth it. It never will be. You, Shelby, are NOT a bad person. You are simply surrounded by bad people who have altered perspectives of the world. Incorrect ones. C'mon, you have to be able to see it. This is incredibly undeserved, you've done nothing wrong. Hell, simply calling someone else a bad person TO THEIR FUCKING FACE makes you a bad person. Why do you listen to her? Brea is starting to sound like the kind of drama-inducing bitch that teenage girls so commonly get stereotyped over. Don't fall for it. You need to get out.
This is absolutely ridiculous. You need to stop putting yourself down, and start distancing yourself from those who do it to you. I don't care if you think you need company and friendship, you DON'T need it from people who are going to treat you like shit, and cause you to feel like shit.
And if Jonah told you to go to hell, why, God, WHY would you still want him to be happy? He certainly doesn't deserve it. Is he the kind of person who deserves it? Why should a whiny, stingy, stuck-up asshole get something like that? You need to teach him a lesson that you can't go through life treating people like garbage and ruining their lives, leaving them in emotional turmoil. You have to. I can't help you with that.
You're obviously distraught over this, but the only way you're going to feel any better is if you do it yourself. You need to prove to yourself that you have the strength and power to fight. Fight the words and the drama. Fight the pain. You're stronger than this, I know it.
Though I know I can't help you with much of this at all. I'm concerned. I'm afraid you're getting close to suicidal behavior, and I won't be able to stand losing another friend who's claimed their own life.
Please. For me.
...You meet someone that is just too good of a friend, and you get angry at yourself because you're not as awesome.
Meet Jonah's brother, Jacob. He's just about the sweetest, kindest friend I have. He's funny, charming, and very childlike but with adult qualities. He has low self esteem, like me, and is a dedicated friend. He listens well.
And yet he's seventeen almost eighteen.
Why can't we be friends, mom... You can't stop me from talking to him... He practically saved my life a few times. I owe him alot. And I care about him.
Sorry for the drama. How are you?