
A couple weeks ago, I was at my aunt's house for my cousin's birthday. He had brought a few friends and we came too. Then, there was a man there. I don't know why he was there, or when he got there, nor even what his name was.
We called him Boston because that was where he lived. Why would he be way over here in Washington?
Anywho, my aunt was talking about her swim training for a triathalon she was doing. She wanted to come over to where we lived so that I could give her tips for distance swimming.
And then, she came over and put her hand on my shoulder while me and everyone else was talking, and then all of a sudden she exclaimed "hey! I can feel your muscles. That's nice man!"
I just took this compliment with a modest nod, then Boston and his wife started talking. Boston said "oh, hey. You're a swimmer? That's nice. You know, I have a daughter about your age back in Boston. She'd just flip over you. You're a great guy, and not too bad looking either. And you're a swimmer, of course."
Then he started talking about how he whenever he was in the area again, he'd love to bring his daughter and hook me up, and he kept saying that he was absolutely serious about this.
I was very flattered that this guy thought I was a chick magnet, and I was happy he thought so highly of me. Yet the whole situation was greatly tainted by the fact of my gayness.
I didn't want to tell him I was gay, because my parents were there, Boston was there, my brother was there, my aunt was there, my cousin and his friends were running around somewhere.
So my only choice was to just cinch tighter the bands of the straight mask I only take off at school and swimming, and hope to God that he never brought his daughter and tried to get us to get together.
This is about one of the only situations in which I am resentful for being gay.
It's also one of the times I'm glad my parents don't know. My mom is very impulsive, and I just KNOW she would have blurted out "oh he's GAY" and then Boston would be all dissapointed. I hate dissapointing people, and to dissapoint someone because you're gay is just total crap.
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wow that sounds
wow that sounds terrible...
I'm sorry D:
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Sometimes I like to sit at night and stare at the lamppost because it's the brightest thing in my life...
I know ay, disappointment is
I know ay, disappointment is never a good feeling.
When I get in a similar situation like that, especially with my dad's coworkers... I tend to just play along. It used to get a little frustrating, but just enjoy it I guess.
Do be flattered though. And after all he's just a stranger. You're not tied by any obligations. Plus, who really sets their daughters up these days? That'd be kind of tragic. If he really brought his daughter all the way from Boston (I don't know how far away that is) to hook you two up, then either Boston is a hole or both him and his daughter need to find better things to do lol.
He was probably just complimenting how awesome you are. Don't feel bad. I used to sort of feel disappointed (or unfair or like you said resentful) over the fact that a girl would like me or something like this would happen, and I wasn't able to like them back. But really, why do we have to impress them?
Boston is on the other side of the Country.
And I think he was just saying that in case he and his daughter happened to be on the other side of the country. And when I laughed at what he was saying, he said "no, really, I'm serious" and he kept saying that with a straight face. Boston is a weird guy.
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