so today didn't seem to have started out well...
i was running late to school and i was supposed to do the first page
of my essay for english that morning...didn't do it...i have a headache
from the night before and my throat got all scratchy and shit...
so i get to school, i have like, two mins to get to class when i see blue
our classes are really near eachother and we both have english..haha
and already i feel a tad bit better...just seeing her...
during class i ask my friend that blurted out what her sexual orientation
yesterday if she thought i had a chance with her...she all like, you like
her, dont you? and i made a face like superducks icon...haha
she said she didn't know but yeah...

so skipping ahead to lunch, i wait and wait for her outside her classroom
but she doesn't show up. so i check the other places she might be and
nada. just when i'm about to go into the school library she pops out of
nowhere. appearently she was looking at mitochondria and there was
a long line at the bathroom-_-' so we go back into her english class
because she had to finish up an essay that was supposed to be due
a while back and towads the end of lunch when her teacher leaves the
room to go to the bathroom before class starts, we start to kinda pack up
and i hug her because i feel shitty, she's on her rag...we both needed it.
and we just stay like that. until someone opens the door...we let go of
each other really fast...like...lighting speed. i'd never seen her move that
fast before...haha...turns out to be an annoying friend person that
constantly buzzes in my ear during french...she talks and talks but i never
hear a word she's saying...anywho. i throw a twinkie at her for ruining
the moment and then other people start coming in...one guy saw the twinkie incident and asked for one. i had tow more left and just gave
them to him. and no, i dont eat them. i hate the taste...my dad told me to
share with my friends...haha. so we leave and go to class...
blah blah blah...

after school: she needs to finish up the essay and i thought i had to go to
tutoring...i didn't so i join her at the computers and check email, check
oasis, and go on youtube to listen to the song i'm most currently
obsessed with...when she's finally done i i wanted to check on my friends
that did have tutoring. i find them and the one from before...i'll call her
scabs. yeah, scabs walks out of the room and starts talking to us.
then she asks devin something and i'm extremely curious as to what is
going on, so i ask and press them to tell me. devin says no to scabs
and she really really wants to tell me something...it's all really weird from
here because my memory just got a bit fuzzy... so scabs is trying to tell
me but either i really can understand her, or i choose not to. it was weird.
so anyways, we talk still and scabs is saying weird shit. she whispers
in my ear that she talked to blue and asked her if she would go out
with me. she said that she would but she's too shy. after that i kinda
played stupid...and scabs kept trying to get us to say it out loud...
or trying to get me to ask her out and we were all getting distracted...
it was terrible...haha...then when we leave, scabs says she's just going
to say it at random, would you want to go out with "blue"? and me, being
the genius, say, why? great response right? yeah...

so then scabs fills my other friend in i think...let's call her bubski...
bubski climbs on a low wall and jumps into my arms...it's a normal thing,
really. so there and since i walk home with them they were telling me
to hurry up. i didn't really want to. i told them that i wanted to steal
some lasagna from blue 'cz that saturday night after the library her mom's
boyfriend said they were going to have lasagna...i missed out on it.
and so when we part ways, scabs calls out that we better be together
by the time we get back to school on thursday...i told blue that i was
going to pretend that i didn't speak to scabs at all that day, pretend she
wasn't at school that day...haha...she said that was probably best...
so we get to her place and she heats up a tiny piece of lasagna and
some onion rings...we share and talk a bit. at this point, i dont think i
can remember anything we talked about, so. after that we go to her living
room/place where she sleeps and i just flopped down on her couch...
the both of us just sat on the couch and talked for a bit before she said
she was going to take a nap. i just sat there and pondered about
stuff before i got up to drink some water. she wasn't actually sleeping so
we just kinda sat there. it was really comfortable.

when i said i needed to
go, i complained(as i usually do) that i dont want to walk home. she
offered to walk with me because it was still light outside. so we walk and
talk and stuff. when we got about a block away from my place i hooked
arms with her. when we were right next door but still on the sidewalk
we talked a bit more and i stole her glasses. again. i lay down on the
lawn in front of my place with her glasses still in hand. she flops down
next to me andwe just lay there for a couple mins. she really needed
to go since it was getting darker and hugged goodbye. but instead of
leaving we just sat there and held each other. i told her that i didn't
want to let go. she didn't respond. but after a couple seconds she said
that people passing by probably think we looked weird. i noted that
there were no people passing by and at that moment a car whizzed by.
then a girl on a bicycle passed by and i yelled out hi...after she was out
of sight we burst out laughing and we both agreed that freaking people
out was the best way to spend your time.

i'm on cloud pi right now.

i dont know if i'm going to ask her out and yeah, i will officially tell her that
i like her, but the both of us dont really...get out of the house that often.
so, i think it'd be difficult to actually go on dates or stuff...the best thing
i can do is go to the library or hang out after school. i'm just glad that
she would consider going out with me...:)

i'm so sorry to bore you with this and if you actually read through it
just so you know, it made me vary happy...you get rainbow cookies
and coupons for soulcake from tophat :)