so we tried to do our bio lab at the library but ended up not finishing
instead we played mash and flames...it was fun...then walked to
her place after the library closed and we kinda talked but not really
because she was eating a corn on the cob....>.>'
and then her mom's boyfriend got there and then i just completely
forgot what we talked about...he told a joke:
what's the difference between a pregnant lady and a lightbulb?
you can unscrew a lightbulb

anyways then i tried to escape with the stuffed dog that sealed our
"marriage" but she was all like hey! and then we got to the corner
and parted and yeah...it was a fun day and i would elaborate
but i'm feeling incredibly lazy and i forgot stuff...not really...just...
it's hard to explain...

long story short
all i could think about was how much i wanted to kiss her
even when she was eating the corn on the cob...because
the way she was eating the corn on the cob made her look like
she was starving...yeah...gawd i want her baaaaaaaaaaaad...

i forgot to say that on the way back from the library i had her lead me
because i was walking with my eyes closed and she was asking
whether or not i trusted her...i told her i didn't know...but i got to her
place unharmed...haha...

i hate when we part ways but i like it at the same time...
i hate that i have to be away from her
but i like that we hug...and just hug...
i never want to let go of her...today
she was grabbing my jacket...

when she wasn't looking i tried our names for flames
and...it came out as L
F=friends
L=overs
A=angry at each other?
M=married?
E=enemies
S=??????

i was really...glad...i'll explain how to play flames later...
too lazy to...
i think my feelings are growing ever stronger for blue...
i'm terrified of rejection...but i know i'll regret it if i dont tell her
but i wont tell her anytime soon....
oh gawd...she'll be a senior next year...