I'm sick of the way I've been living.
I'm sick of procrastinating. Sick of feeling tired all day because I've slept at 3am the previous night, doing I don't know what. Sick of getting Bs when I know I can get As if only I'd put more time into it. (Isn't that an excuse everyone makes?) I think my consciousness really wanted me to do well at school, but my subsciousness is chating on me behind my back. It's telling me to escape from reality, until I find myself in a deeper hole that I can never escape from.

This needs to stop. Emotional control. Self-discipline.
That's what I need.
That's what I want.
I'm sick of my life.
I'm going to have a plan. To build a routine. So I can get up at 7am every morning and sleep at 11pm without feeling like shit all day.

I have a giant math test tomorrow. I need to do well on that.
Good luck to me =) And thanks!

On a happier note, I came out to my math tutee today. She's a hardcore Christian, but very accepting and open-minded as well. I love her. She even invisted me to her party at church. I would totally go if I didn't have gazillion hmw piled up on the weekend....

I want to have time to party, to appreciate life, and most important of all, to sleep.
I want to start living.