In a grumpy mood. Kind of have been for a whole week.

That's what excessive study does to you. You guys are probably sick of hearing about it all, but it's just so real for me. Went on the NCEA website to download exemplar papers this morning, and they even have that bloody countdown timer telling you when the nationwide exam descends upon you - 3 days and 22 hours and 32 minutes? Well fuck you website. Thanks for gloating over my pain. You don't have to sit exams do you. In fact, it isn't 3 days you piece of shit clock. It's 1 day and god-knows few hours for me. Thanks for catering to those who are sitting scholarship exams on a Saturday. Fuck you countdown timer.

I've reached that sort of saturation point. No I haven't I can keep going. Well I'm probably losing my mind. I ended up starving or eating or trolling facebook or blogs or playing computer games (for a full hour) or being hermitty or being abusive... there's no time to waste! There's still like fifty billion more practice papers for me to sit. And I still can't do them right.

I couldn't even go out last night. There was a birthday dinner. How could they be so relaxed at this time? Oh wait, it's because they're only sitting one exam. I'm sitting ten bloody exams. Five of them even clumped up in four days next week. All ten of them three hour exams. Three full hours. Some of them even double up on the same day. Then the guy I sort of like (the straight one that went to a gay club with me last time) asked me if I wanted to go for a drive last night. Of course I want to. But I can't can I? Fuck you exams.

This will only end in weeping in Janurary next year. I'm so stupid. I shouldn't even be on here. I'm losing my mind. I'm just so, so, sick of this.