Why?? Can anyone tell me? Every time I get into a relationship..
UGH.

I think I've figured it out, slightly..

There's a process for getting into a relationship, for me.

Step One: Get a crush on someone. Preferrably a close friend, or something. That'll make things nice and complicated.

Step Two: Find someone completely attractive. Crush on them. Get over other crush, and don't say anything to that person.

Step Three: Crush from step one realizes they like me, or tells me they like me.

Step Four: Alex agrees to be in a relationship with said person from step one and three because she is a COMPLETE DUMBASS.

Step Five: Alex is miserable because she KNOWS she does not like said person, but doesn't want to hurt their feelings by telling them that she doesn't like them.

Step Six: Alex breaks up with said person after 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 weeks of dating.

Fuck. My. Life.

I saw A yesterday. I was OVERJOYED that she actually >talked< to me. She had a kickass costume... kinda gory, but it was funny.

Then I remembered I have a girlfriend who is absolutely CRAZY for me and who's going through a lot of shit right now...

I'm really beginning to think I'm heartless... at least for relationships..

I suck. Big time.

=/