My best friend came over on Friday and we haven't hung out in months. We barely even talk. We don't fight and we haven't fought but sometimes we just go long periods without talking to each other and it doesn't help that her new house doesn't have signal so she can't text. I always think she has plenty of other times to text me because she goes to school each day, she has a car and can drive, and sometimes I get sad because she knows where I am. I'm here. And she can't find time to talk to me or come over. But hopefully that will change now.
I told her I was bisexual. I told her I have a girlfriend. Holy shit I was so nervous the entire time before she came over my stomach was turning. But I told her!!!! I'm so happy. I've felt guilty I was going to tell her a long long time ago but I couldn't. And now other people already know and I just thought she should know first. We shouldn't have secrets, we've known each other for 12 years. She gave me a hug and said that's so awesome! And I was relieved. Because I just wanted her to know that I'm the same exact person and not to think any differently of me and I didn't even have to say that she said it to me and it made me so happy.
My GIRLFRIEND came over on saturday and we had fun and watched some movies and it was the best night we had. I love kissing. It's very interesting. And pleasing. And we can sleep in the same bed and I love that too :P my parents don't know.
I posted a bulletin on myspace that says "I would like everyon to know that I have a girlfriend now, and that's not a secret anymore" So now they know. We've been together for a couple weeks OFFICIALLY but it seems a lot longer since we've liked each other and everything. I guess now that everything seems more solid and I feel more confident I'm not afraid to tell people. Probably I will still be a little uncomfortable but I'll get used it.