eh, my whole body is full of anxiety tonight, wish i had someone to talk to. funny how people tend to be absent when you need them but very much present when they need you. There are only two things that never let you down, intoxication and dogs, and failing to have the latter, i've turned to the former. Wish like crazy I had a joint, but I don't, so wine and cigarettes are keeping me company. I've locked myself in my room, which is kind of funny because my room is a bomb shelter, the door is thick and metallic and airtight with this massive bolt. I've kind of been excluded from dinner so i took a pomegranate with me, goes good with the wine. hehe, red wine, pomegranate, red bed, red chair, red curtains, red suitcare and red shelves.

why is it easier to give love than receive it. I need a dog, that's about as close as it gets for me i think.

i need to go, toodles.