Slowly going insane...

26 September, 2009 - 9:05am — l.enigma_ambulante

Why am I so upset over this?

It's just facebook.

And we're not even friends.

I should just add her.

But I'm afraid of rejection...

I make too many excuses for myself.

I don't want her to judge me.

When I think she's looking at me, it almost feels that way.

God... I just... I don't know what to do.
I'm a mess right now, and I have no clue why.

I don't know if she's in a relationship or not..

I'm hoping it's not with someone I know...........

Because that would be painful.

Ugh... it sounds like I'm like... in love with her or something.
But I'm not.
It's just a crush.

It's like every other thought I have is about her.

I just want her to notice me.. to see me for who I really am..

Because.. I feel like we would be right for each other.

Damn it. =/

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Comments

26 September, 2009 - 9:14am — lacking_direction

Yeah, It just sounds like

Yeah, It just sounds like you're crushing hard. Friend her! It sucks if she doesn't add you, but it's not a big deal. It's happened to me. You could see if she has a lot of FB friends and if she does you might have higher chances of getting in. You know if she accepts, you can see more details about her and we both know you want to :P. She lives on your floor or wing or whatever, so I would imagine it would be awkward if she didn't accept the request. Soooo I think she will. Just do it. And you can always friend me to make yourself feel better!

27 September, 2009 - 2:00am — Nanook

Haha, you sound like me with

Haha, you sound like me with every single one of my crushes. I seriously debated whether or not to add my last boyfriend on Fb for 3 hours straight. In the end I never actually added him, because he added me.

Then, he and I were on Fb at the same time. So I spent 15 minutes straight debating whether or not to message him, and if I did, what I would say. Once again, he messaged me first (he has a friend, Kyle, who forced him to addme/chat with me, otherwise she would have started telling me things, like how he liked me alot).

But, if you at least have a class together, then I think it's safe if you add her. I mean, just because someone friended you, it doesn't automatically mean that they like you.

27 September, 2009 - 5:32am — l.enigma_ambulante

See, the bad thing is,

See, the bad thing is, though, that my college is SO FREAKING SMALL. Everyone in the dorms knows basically everyone else... and I'm completely worried that she's noticed me like... staring at her accidentally numerous times.. or.. something.. XD and it would be awkward to add her because we don't like.. have any mutual friends.. though we're both in our college's gsa group... lightbulb moment lol! But yeah. I don't know.
And as far as i know, her profile isn't private for people on our college network.. so basically I can see everything anyways...
Sigh. I don't know.

[[Love means you can never be apart... <3]]

27 September, 2009 - 6:37am — lacking_direction

you could add everyone from

you could add everyone from the gsa and then use that as an excuse if she gets weird about it.

27 September, 2009 - 6:39am — l.enigma_ambulante

XD I actually thought of

XD I actually thought of that... but I thought that would be odd to do... considering I'm not like.. part of the main tightknit group that's the majority of the girls there. And basically no one even knows I'm there..

I'm pretty much invisible around here, I'm slowly realizing..

[[Love means you can never be apart... <3]]