lately i've just been kinda blah. :/
like, school just doesn't interest me, i always feel like crying, and i've just spent most of my time sleeping, and it's like there's something wrong with me. but the thing is, i can't figure out just what that is.

i let go of ashley, and i'm seriously thinking that may be what's up. like, i finally told her that it bothered me the way she treated me. she would have a problem, and i'd be right there by her side, listening to everything she had to say. and then i'm going through it, and there's more important things. this isn't just a couple times, this is every time something goes wrong. such as losing the only person i could really trust in my house.

but yeah. i told her i was done, and that i loved her, but i couldn't do it anymore. said this all to her in texts, while she was sleeping, and i know she got them, because she's made it a point to not talk to me. but it bothers me that she doesn't even bother trying to talk to me about it. like, she doesn't even try to say goodbye, y'know?

i'm thinking about IM'ing her, and being like, "i need to know what you think about this." or something along those lines. [i'm very straightforward, you'll learn pretty soon. (:]

i just did and she didn't say anything.
fml. (: