This happened last year, but I never had the opportunity to even say anything about it until now.

I was on a college visit with my mom last year. My mom and I are very close and can talk about almost anything. I really wasn't feeling the college visit at all. The school was really conservative and small and not what I was looking for at all. But they did have an activities fair. It turns out even at this college they had a gsa, and I went over and talked to them. They were really nice and it was cool just chatting, considering the whole day wasn't going so great.

I find my mom later, and it turns out she saw me. She asked me if I was gay, and told me that it was ok if I was and everything.

So I had the opportunity to tell her. But I wound up just saying, "Gay? Of course not!" and all other sorts of things.

Of course, I've never had a boyfriend (or girlfriend) in my life. So that doesn't help either.

There was a girl who I honestly think I loved. And I still really, really like her. But I was a coward and said nothing and now she lives far away.

I've had dreams where we meet up somewhere unexpectedly in some big city, and then I tell her everything I had wanted to say for years.