"The colors of the rainbow shine so bright,
Every time I look into your eyes~
It's the colors of the rainbow that feed my soul,
Over and over just like you do~"
-Colours of the Rainbow, by Tune Up!
Okay, so does anybody else's parents like Disney Channel movies? Odd question, I know, but my dad can't seem to get enough of them. He constantly watches movies like "Camp Rock", "Ice Princess", and the newly released "Princess Protection Program". My mom thinks it's weird, but I think it's hysterical (as well as a bit odd). He knows who Hannah Montana and the Jonas Brothers are and even recognizes their songs. The man's over 60, but maybe he's just getting in-tune with his inner child? *shrugs* Who knows. But I want to know if you guys at Oasis have parents like this?
Anyways, I'm still not sleeping. However, since I started listening to music in the dark, I've felt very refreshed! So I thank you to whoever suggested that. :) I also keep a journal, but that doesn't really seem to help much. Oh well. My sleeping pattern will return to normal once school starts.
"In my head,
That's where you are~
You left a stain,
But not a scar~"
-Breathe You In, by Kurt Nilsen
Urgh... I'm REALLY nervous about school this year. I suffer from panic attacks, so I'm one of those kids who frequently wiggles their way out of going to school. Last year I missed a total of about 203 classes... Yeah, that's not good. Especially since this year I have a schedule full of complicated classes. If I miss any days this year, I'm screwed. Not to mention my best friend graduated this year and is going to another city for college. x_x So now I have no one to hang out with except my ex, who honestly, can be a bit much to handle. She ignores me (though I kind of deserve it), expects me to wait on her hand and foot, and her friend is always insulting me. I love her, but sometimes I just can't take it. I can't even talk to her about anything because she once flaunted the fact that she knows all these "secrets" about her friends. I don't want to tell her anything because I'm afraid she only cares because it will be something she can hold against me.
This year we didn't interact very much, but suddenly she wants to be friends again. I missed her more than you can imagine, but I'm afraid that the only reason she started talking to me again is because she's bored. She's a very complicated person. I love her to bits, but I just can't keep up... I don't even know if she really cares about me. I'd ask her myself, but when I do she gets pissed at me for doubting her.