I'm Homee... and I'm falling for her again. =o

17 July, 2009 - 9:19am — l.enigma_ambulante

So. I'm home. I've been home for a few days, but have been avoiding writing a journal.

I've also been staying up very late the past few nights..
It's all because of "her" though.

And I feel like SUCH AN IDIOT. =/ Mostly because I don't know how to talk to her.....

She's currently looking at failblog and telling me random things she finds that are funny on there. =] At least she's talking to me!

Anyways.. vacation went as well as I expected.. boring as hell, and the other girl who was up there with us was annoying to boot.. so it really was not an enjoyable experience.
OH! And before I forget..
I'm going to the movies tomorrow. With "her." To see HP.
Oh. My. Fuck.
I don't know if I'll be able to sit still if she's sitting.. that close to me..... =/

Guys.. and girls..

I'm falling so hard for her..
But I can't do anything about it. My family views homosexuality as disgusting and gross. =/ That and I will be 3 hours away from her if we COULD date. fml...

But yeahhh..
On vacation, I realized that I am much more attracted to girls than I am guys. XD

So, there's my tidbit of information for the night.
=]
Alex

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17 July, 2009 - 1:44pm — carmen143

Well the last part is

Well the last part is good.
And you get to go see Harry Potter! Thats always awesome.
And this might be horrible advice but maybe you could talk to her? She might feel the same way. (Feel free to ignore this cause I'm really bad with advice. Ha.)
<3 FLAME ON! <3

17 July, 2009 - 10:15pm — l.enigma_ambulante

Yes! I know =D I'm excited

Yes! I know =D I'm excited to see it!! (Wow... I feel like a nerd.. haha!!!)

Aaaannnnddd.... Well, I would... but.. see, she thinks I like someone else.. because I asked HER for advice.. about talking to HER.. but she didn't know it was about her.
I think she suspects that who I like is female.. because I kept saying "they" instead of him or w/e.. haha.
That, and I'm took fucking chicken to say anything.. I hate being rejected, and I don't want it to affect our friendship..

17 July, 2009 - 10:16pm — l.enigma_ambulante

Sorry, repost. =/

18 July, 2009 - 12:06am — carmen143

All good reasons to ignore

All good reasons to ignore my advice.
And I've done that before. Asked the person you like for advice about talking to them. Always fun and not even a little bit awkward. Lol. :)
<3 FLAME ON! <3

18 July, 2009 - 2:39am — l.enigma_ambulante

XD Yeah.. she asked me

XD Yeah.. she asked me after who I liked... and I was like.... =o Uhmmmm.... I don't think I can tell you right noww..... then she said she thought I was going to say that, and she seemed.. sad about it. I told her that I trust her and everything, and I do.. completely, but I couldn't yet.

So yeah, that part was a bit awkward lol.

18 July, 2009 - 2:15am — fox333

Yeah, I would give

Yeah, I would give advice.... but I don't want to ruin your life.

18 July, 2009 - 2:40am — l.enigma_ambulante

Awww... Trust me, you can't

Awww... Trust me, you can't fuck up my life any more than I already have. =]

18 July, 2009 - 2:54am — carmen143

Well thats reassuring.

Well thats reassuring. Lol.
<3 FLAME ON! <3

18 July, 2009 - 3:29am — l.enigma_ambulante

I try.. I try. =p

18 July, 2009 - 3:21am — OnlyForYou

Does she know that you like

Does she know that you like a girl. As in her. But girls in general? If she does and is fine with it then you are a much smaller step from telling her than most could hope for... PM me if you want. I have a whole lot of stuff swimming around in my head haha :)

If homosexuality is a disease, let's all call in queer to work: "Hello. Can't work today, still queer."

18 July, 2009 - 3:31am — l.enigma_ambulante

No, she doesn't know.. and

No, she doesn't know.. and honestly, that is the one thing I'm afraid to tell her for some reason.. I don't know why! I know for a fact that she would be okay with it.. I mean, she hates sounding like a hypocrite. XD

And thank you =D I love getting advice! haha

By the way... I love your sig... XD I lmao'd at that one!!!!!!!

18 July, 2009 - 3:40am — fox333

TEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

TEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER!
I mean I didn't tell the girl that I liked in highschool but I did the next best thing.

18 July, 2009 - 3:45am — l.enigma_ambulante

My friend just yelled at me,

My friend just yelled at me, too. =/

And.. what was the next best thingg???

18 July, 2009 - 3:43am — ferrets

ferrets....

give the bestest advice. and there advice is....purple buckets. ok sorry randomness. isnt disgusting and gross a double negitive? but dododo tell her

two guys are talking. one is straight, one is gay. the straight one says" is there anyway i can turn you straight?" the gay one responds" of course, ill go straight as long as you turn gay!"

18 July, 2009 - 4:12am — l.enigma_ambulante

=O That is good advice...

=O That is good advice... I'll take that into account. =p Haha

And yeah.. disgusting and gross would technically be a double negative.. o.O lmao

Sigh.
I feel like I'm going in circles.. everyone is telling me to tell her, but.. it's not that simple..
She's.. different. She doesn't talk about the girls that she likes to me, but she talks about her friend who like.. felt her up twice(who is a straight guy, might I add, who likes her a lot..).. and I gave her a lot of advice about that. And I was desperately trying not to show the proteciveness I felt for her(Edit: I meant protectiveness, not jealousy, just so you guys know lol). She trusts me with important things.. and I don't ever want to screw that up, you know? I don't want to risk an amazing friendship with my.. well, only true best friend.

18 July, 2009 - 5:22am — fox333

18 July, 2009 - 5:35am — fox333

Its ok. that way I didn't

Its ok. that way I didn't have to tell her. I knew she knew and she could approach me if she liked me.

18 July, 2009 - 6:12am — l.enigma_ambulante

Ah, that's very

Ah, that's very true..

[[Love means you can never be apart... <3]]

18 July, 2009 - 6:24am — fox333

Are you out at school?

18 July, 2009 - 6:26am — l.enigma_ambulante

Noooo... I don't go there

Noooo... I don't go there until August 29th. Sigh..

[[Love means you can never be apart... <3]]

18 July, 2009 - 6:29am — fox333

Oh, its summer.... right....

18 July, 2009 - 6:32am — l.enigma_ambulante

Yes, yes it is. lol [[Love

Yes, yes it is. lol

[[Love means you can never be apart... <3]]