I had a really nice day today. I was supposed to meet a friend and do something, we had not decided what, fun. However she had to cancel due to extreme sunburn...silly girl. So I ended up going shopping with another friend instead. It was fun, I bought a really funky pair of runners, it took me two hours of going in and out of every shop twice until I decided I liked them. Then we went to the park, and just lounged about the place enjoying the weather. I must admit though I did feel jealous of all the couples sunbathing, all wrapped up in each other.

I hope tomorrow is a fun day too, although I am not really too sure what I am going to do for it. Last week I went to see a counsellor to talk about some stuff. I applied to make the appointment, several weeks ago when I actually really felt like I needed it. By the time they got back to me, I had sort of resolved a lot of the stuff that had been bothering me. But I decided to keep the appointment anyways, because I wanted some advice on how to deal with my home situation at the moment.

I haven't really mentioned it on here, but basically my mam seems to have a problem with me being gay. She was fine, or so I thought, when I first told her. But a while later the cracks did begin to emerge. To be honest I am not sure if she has a problem with me being gay, or a problem with me being gay and not telling my dad yet. I honestly think it's probably a mixture of the two.

Anyways, the counsellor helped a little bit, and I am supposed to go back to see her tomorrow again, but I don't really want to. She was a nice woman, but there was something about her I just didn't like. I also think the stuff with my family is stuff that I just need to work through myself. I don't think a counsellor can help me with it. I am now worried about cancelling the appointment as I am supposed to give 24 hours notice.

I tend to worry a lot.