nonstop thunder for hte past half hour...it's distant but getting closer. my room's being lit every 30 seconds or so by lightning. it's rather thrilling, actually :P. i've always loved thunder storms, assuming that i'm safe in bed, with a nice, grounded house around me :P

thanks, but i'll leave flat desert storms to the morons (like my parents, lol) who camp out there.

actually, the real moron in that case was the guy who crawled up onto his RV (in a lighting storm) to attach the antenna for his TV. true story.

my mother, in other news, is royally freaking out about me leaving, and refuses to do anything about it. like, seriously. she goes from accusing me of being a would be rapist to not caring that i was at her recital, to not talking to me, to ignoring me, to saying that everything's fine, then yelling at me when i tried to talk to her about leaving. guh.

i hate it when people are so irrational about this sort of thing. i mean, okay, emotions are running high, i get that. but she refuses to do anything about it.

i guess that's a bit hypocritical, but i usually do at least try.

storm's getting closer.

i told my therepist today about me and J. :D she was hilarious. she starts laughing and says "well, i saw THAT coming on like a freight train!!" lol, then she goes on to tease me MERCILESSLY about being a cliche, lol.

then she had a total ADD moment, and forgot what she was say midsentence because she was trying to figure otu wehre to put her foot on the table, and i started laughing.

10, 15 miles out.

i'm really looking forward to becoming friends with her (my shrink), when i stop seeing her for therepy. i really admire her, really look up to her, and she's helped me so, so much. since the first day i walked into her office, she's helped.

hmm. the storm seems to be dying, or passing me by. how disappointing...

i guess i'll go back to missing my girlfriend (like i ever stopped...) and watching rachel maddow.

BD