I can't decide-Scissor Sisters- fucking love 'em, don't you?
I'm more aware that I am a woman everytime I'm on this site. Like how can I be this much of a bitch to people? I don't think that I try to be this mean, it just happens by some stupid mistake that I'm making, and it's fucking people over cosmically.
Anyway, so the guy I've been talking about/to for a long ass time now. I've decided that it isn't the best idea on the planet to just sleep with him. And guess what? I actually came to that conclusion before I did anything with him that could be damaging.
Another bit of news. It was my ex girlfriend's birthday the other day, yesterday I believe. So I sent her a message to tell her happy birthday, and she called me. We talked like civil people for three hours. I tend to talk a lot, but for us that is kind of an accomplishment. We haven't really spoken for a few months, not really since xmas. That's about the time that she took me and another ex of mine to the mall for some fun. Yeah, they competed for my attention the entire time. But after that we didn't really talk. So it was nice, we kind of caught up. I realized that I'm so much older than her it kills me a little inside because she's actually more mature than I am.
But I talked to my other ex today, and apparently she's jealous that I had been talking to the bday ex. To end the confusion. I'll do this, b-day ex= b and other ex= O. Simple enough I think.
So, O was jealous that me and B had been talking because O still has feelings for me whether she is willing to acknowledge that or not. O is the one that creates this drama because she is jealous person by nature. And B isn't so much, but she plays into O's game. And there's me, I just don't care, I'm not a jealous person. I learned that O and B have something of a history. Which is weird. They are both ex's of mine. But it kind of explains how they hate each other so much.
It also doesn't help that O and B had to stay after school until 9 o'clock to work on newspaper together. So basically they are locked in a room together, and I know that they aren't thinking about the drama going on like I am, but still. I don't think the tension in there would have been bearable. B is supposed to call me. But she hasn't. And it's getting late.
Having feelings for my ex is kind of driving me nuts. I don't have feelings for O even though I broke up with her more recently, I have feelings for B. I haven't really dated her for like a year. FML. I don't know that she feels the same way. She kind of insinuated it, but I don't know. She can be hard to read in that department. *sigh* I'm rambling at this point.
Just read this on another site, couldn't resist, it's kind of like an awesomely bad pick up line:
If I were to flip a coin, what are the chances of me getting head?