Not really, but it seemed like a good title! I mentioned in a journal a week or so ago that I had been kissing a Canadian girl. Well I got her number that night that I had been with her, and she had mine. I however never called her afterwards, mainly because I still have feelings for my other friend, which for some reason or other I can't seem to let go of.

Well I figured the kissing with the Canadian was just one of those once off things, especially since she hadn't called me either. Well, last night I went out to the same place and bumped into her, and boy was she pissed I hadn't called. I was kind of suprised to be honest. She told my friend she had really liked me and didn't understand what went wrong. I felt like an ass, so I went to talk to her again. Well long story short, she made a point to go and kiss someone else in front of me, and make it very clear I had blown things with her. But to be truthful I was kind of relieved. I spend all this time wishing for a girlfriend, then when a potential one comes along I run a mile. I don't understand myself. Honestly the thoughts of being with her scared me so much. I am not sure why. I think it is partially due to the fact that I like someone else, and tieing myself to this girl would probably blow apart any chances with the other girl. Also being with the Canadian probably would have taken my life to a new level of out...I am not sure I am ready to go there.

Anyways thats all folks.