..i am learning to walk in them.
it is much harder than it looks! i feel like a lopsided retard.
i miss him.
maybe i'm forgetting what a douche he is,
and how not worth it it is.
i mean, i still know that.
i don't have the slightest inclination to go back to him.
i feel empty, with him gone.
he called me on thursday and left a message, just saying 'hey, i havent talked to you in a while, so just saying hey. thats it." and something about essays and tests and that he might not pick up if i call back because he has a lot of work to do.
of course i didnt call back.
but every day thats passed since then (like, what, two? pathetic.)
its been growing in my mind.
his voice keeps nagging at my heart.
i couldnt hold back any longer so i called him today.
but he didnt pick up, it was around 4 pm.
we'll see; i'm sure he'll call back.