dentists, and the people they employ to clean people's teeth SUCK. OMFG!!!!!!!

got my teeth cleaned today. ya know the thought that kept popping into my head? "I thought my president says torture is ILLEGAL!!!!!!!"

apparently, though, it IS legal. cause seriously, it fucking HURT!!!! for hours afterwards, i couldn't CHEW.

i mean, i know i don't take the best care of my mouth. i brush once a day, occassionally twice, if it's needed. i rarely floss. i only use mouthwash if my breath is bad.

but dude!!!!! what the fuck???? she was DIGGING the pick into my gums!!! seriously, coming out with CHUNKS of bloody tissue!!! (no joke...i'm not exaggerating that bit) and i'm like "that fucking hurts!" and she's like "you don't take care of your gums!" i'm like "FUCK YOU LADY"

and THEN??? okay, i have a major gag reflex (oooh, but don't say The Word, cause then you might! like seriously? i'm a big girl now! you can say "gag"...i'm not a dog....i won't do it on command! it's that kind of supersticious fearmongering that leads us to mass panic attacks over a new strain of flu, and what allowed the bush regime to rule our lives for so long) (yes, i just compaired my dental hygenist to bush. fuck off). but back to my point.

i have a major gag reflex. i TOLD her that when i went in! she was putting the polish crap on, and was doing my back molars, and yeah, i gagged! what did she do??? she just kept on with what she was doing!!! so i gagged again!!! i'm like, lady, fucking take that stick out of my fucking mouth!

gah, it was awful.

but tonight was fun! i cooked dinner for my folks (cause i'm learning how to cook, and it's cool), then hung out and did half the NYT crossword with my dad...then wolf txted me, and she was bored, so i went over and we hung out.

i'm not overly fond of her bf. i mean, i know he just moved to a new place, is totally uprooted and all, but the guy doesn't have a spine, let alone a set of balls!!! i mean, i don't want him to be all "i'm male, obey me!" but an opinion once in a while would be nice! a THOUGHT!!! but no. it's always "whatever you guys want." "i don't care" "whatever"

gah, i HATE people like that! he pisses me off so much sometimes. and i don't think he's all that good for wolf, so....

but it was good to see her. i've been missing her. i always forget that i miss her, until we hang out, and then it hits me. silly, huh? but there ya be.

ooh, and she finally met J tonight!!! that was amazing! :D i'll have to talk to her tomorrow to find out what she thinks of her.

part of me feels bad, still, for leaving her like this. she's graduating in a month....assuming she has enough credits, that is....which is kind of doubtful at the moment. but...ah well. she'll figure something out.

but i feel like she needs help getting out of the house. getting out into the world, and AWAY from her mother. GOD, i want her to get away from her mother. and her bf won't help....and she won't do it on her own. i wish i could stick around to help, but even if i WERE here, i don't think she'd let me.

but speaking of my sexy girlfriend..... :D it might just possibly be a matter of 6 or so weeks before i finally get to see her!!! which is amazing beyond compair.

i love her so, so much. and i'm looking forward to this coming year of my life so, SO much. and all the more because i'll be sharing it with her.

she's my shining star. she's so beautiful, so wonderful. she makes me feel like i'm worth something...that i'm important to HER. i'm even starting to believe that...

so now i'm going to go play scrabble with her, cause that's our game, and i'll probably let her win, cause she likes that :)

BD