I feel a little old to be posting on Oasis. I have mentioned this before, but I am proceeding to do so anyway, because I generally feel the need to blog, and I have been writing journals on here for the past three years, so I may as well keep them all together, as opposed to moving somewhere else. There is also the fact that I like all the folks around here also =] If I ever seem like the creepy older person hanging around, someone should tell me!

Anyways on to the actual journal. As I have wrote about many time in the last few months, my academic life is going down the tubes at the moment. Before I just felt like I might have been failing, today I found out I most definitly am. It is frustrating. It is only one module that I am failing, that is going to stop me going foward to my final year in college.

I am trying to weigh it up and try and think of some up sides for the situation. Since it is only one module I will be repeating I wont technically have to attend classes. So I will have some more time to maybe do some reading up on things it would be useful to know for my course. I could also try study for some other certification that could compliment my degree once I get it.

On the down side, my life will be in hold for a year. It will be difficult tk get a full-time job since we are in a recession. I have a part-time job at the moment so I might be able to get some more hours from that. I didn't take the conventional route to college, which basically means I was older starting, this means I will now be 25 graduating. That also kind of freaks me out. But most of all I feel embarassed and ashamed of my failure.

Without meaning to be arrogant, I think I am very intelligent and capable, but it was other circuimstances occuring in my life that has led me into this situation. Sometimes the world fucks you over I guess. But I'll try cling onto that quote-in every difficulty there is opportunity.(something like that anyway)