Where do I start?
The real question is where do I fit in? Everybody seems to have a niecly-cut niche, a group of friends, an obsession. I'm just not sure what I am supposed to be. Sometimes I'm too nerdy, and sometimes too stupid. And usually not funny, except for those 'rarities' where I'm being offensive.
It seems so dramatic and wierd and akward to make such a big fuss over something so trivial, so unimportant in the grand scheme of things.
I'm jealous of all of those people who fit into a stereotype, because that at least sets down guidelines for them. Is there such category as a lesbian-tranny-nerd-artist-counselor-calculator enthusiast? Freak is the only one that comes to mind.
And everything I seem to be good at is soon learned by those closest to me... I used to think I was the only one who...etc...
I don't understand how I could have been so ignorant as I was-- to think that anything I used to love required even an ounce of talent. I thought it came so easy not because it WAS easy, but because it required some sort of skill. Of course I am not unique. Of course I can't make a difference as I am. Something has to change.
But to think about it, this world is just itching to give everyone a shiny gold medal just for playing the game.