so i'm sick. had a migrane all day, and on and off nausea. ick. but now i'm talking to her, and it's wonderful.

i miss mendocino!!!!! i am SOOOO jealous of all my friends who live up there, and who grew up there. i figure, i mean, i know it would've sucked for me socially, and all, but hey, so did here! and at least there, i would've had other things. C, and the ocean, and room to move! oh well....

hehe, someone on facebook just had something in a quiz about angie harmon.....*drool* i know i have a girlfriend, but OMG.

i've been thinking so much in the last few days about being trans. i don't think i am....but sometimes, i do. i dunno. i'm both. male and female. and it's so confusing, cause sometimes i feel totally fine in my own body, and sometimes....i don't.

i look at guys, and all i can think is how much i want to look like that. how much i want to BE like that.....but wanting doesn't make it true. doesn't make me trans.

i dunno. i'm just so confused, sometimes. i don't know who, or what, i am. all i know for certain (in terms of sexuality and gender, that is :P) is that i don't like guys. thinking about having sex with a guy....from either side of the tracks.....is a major turn off.

anyway. i'm just majorly confused, is all.

BD