So it has been confirmed, by the woman herself, that Vic straight. "Only boys for me", fuckkk. That seriously saddens me, since I was so sure she was flirting. And so, I am alone. 100% alone in the world. I know two gay people. Maddie and Hilary and they don't count because I don't talk to Maddie so she might as well not exist and Hilary lives in England so she might as well not exist either. Also Hilary is busy being bitter.
:( It's so overwhelming. I'm so overwhelmingly lonely, I just want to bawl. I almost did :|, but didn't. It's like I just CAN'T cry... the last time I did was in early February? Yeah... wow.
Last night I got buzzed alone in my room to see how much alcohol I could handle? Yeah. This is where I am right now.