I'm the most queer and alone person in the whole world and I just want to bawl.

12 April, 2009 - 5:39am — starsxfallxup

So it has been confirmed, by the woman herself, that Vic straight. "Only boys for me", fuckkk. That seriously saddens me, since I was so sure she was flirting. And so, I am alone. 100% alone in the world. I know two gay people. Maddie and Hilary and they don't count because I don't talk to Maddie so she might as well not exist and Hilary lives in England so she might as well not exist either. Also Hilary is busy being bitter.

:( It's so overwhelming. I'm so overwhelmingly lonely, I just want to bawl. I almost did :|, but didn't. It's like I just CAN'T cry... the last time I did was in early February? Yeah... wow.

Last night I got buzzed alone in my room to see how much alcohol I could handle? Yeah. This is where I am right now.

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12 April, 2009 - 5:48am — Doctor Beastly

Dig This

This may not help you, but I think this song may be right for your situation. Everybody Plays The Fool by the Main Ingredient covers this topic.

12 April, 2009 - 10:20am — msquared

You know plenty of gay

You know plenty of gay people - they just don't realize it yet. At best, more will come out and you won't feel so lonely; at worst, you'll have to wait till college, when many more people are out, and even that's not so bad. Be thankful that we at least have the internet and can connect with as many gay people as we want on here - if we were growing up before the internet age, we'd have just about no one. So yay, right?

"But don't be afraid to be a fool. Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it."
-Stephen Colbert

12 April, 2009 - 5:55pm — Strawberry-chan