I have a problem.
I'm starting to crush on this girl. Who I'm is straight. Of course.
I'm shooting my hopes down, because well, it saves me from getting all upset.
This isn't the first time I've done this to myself. I'll get over it in a few days. It just sucks really bad being the one of the few open gay people.

oh. well.

I was suppossed to have 3 softball games this week but they've all gotten cancelled because of the rain. I'm kinda glad too. The weather lately has matched my mood.
I'm in this state of mind right now that I feel like just getting up and walking out of school one day. Could you imagine how pissed my dad would be? I'm going to do it one of these days. Chicago is only a few hours away, I've always wanted to go there. Maybe I should put a map in my car soon just in case.