grr. okay, so, i'm a control freak. i'm well aware of that.

my father is one too. GAH. most of the time, it's cool, and we're on the same side of things, as it were. but not when it comes to driving!

i got my liscence almost a year ago now, and other than when he was teaching me to drive, he REFUSES to let me drive! it's so horrible! we're planning to drive up to mendocino in a few weeks, to go to my aunts' concert, and he's sitting there bitching about having to drive into the late afternoon sun.

HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm MORE than willing to drive!!! i LOVE that drive!!!!! it's the most amazing place on earth!!!

sure, sometimes i can convince him to let me take the wheel for a few hours....but then all he does is sit in the passenger seat and sulk! i'm serious! he won't sing, he won't listen to music (not that he EVER listens to my music), he won't play Ghost, or ANYTHING. he just sits and emminates displeasure.

which makes it not so nice to drive! i mean, i could talk with my mom, but she's in the backseat, and he makes his displeasure known any time we try to have a conversation.

it's horrible. i mean, i get that he gets carsick too, but HELLO!!!!! i don't get all pissy and grumpy when i have to deal with almost overwhelming nausea for 3 hours! i eat a good solid meal, i suck on candy, i wear the sea bands, and i grit my teeth and bear it! i don't SULK!!!

and it just pisses me off so much, cause he refuses to acknowledge that i'm a good driver, or even that i'm competant! cause i am. yeah, i make mistakes, but duh, so does he!

i'm so sick of it. it's the same for any roadtrip we take. if i beg and plead, he'll give in (i think cause my mom makes him), but it's miserable for all of us til i hand over the wheel again. and that just sucks. he was SO supportive when i was learning to drive, he's an amazing teacher, but as soon as i got my liscence....nope! no more driving for me!

my mom's the complete opposite. i LOVE driving with her. we have the best conversations, and she loves my music, and it's just great!

guh. so what should be a wonderful trip is going to be a disaster, and i don't know how to do anything about it. i WANT to drive! i SHOULD drive, for at least part of it! but he WILL NOT bend. i guess i have to.....but it sucks!

i went for 17 years without saying boo about him driving all the time....now, for a few hours OUT OF THE YEAR he can't give in? that's just balls. i don't even ask him to let me drive like if we go out to dinner or something, or even for short car trips. but this? this is my favorite place in the world. it's the most amazing drive. guh.

okay....that's my random rant for the day. i need food. i almost got enough sleep today to start feeling human again....

BD