This week has been emotionally rough on me. Katie my ex recontacted me and stupid me i responded and then she wanted to meet so we met yesturday and then she panicked and ran down some stairs so i couldnt follow i have since been the one to cut the ties and i am never letting her back in. the silver lining of yesturday was chris sister i went to catch my bus and chris mom and sister the one i have been in contact with for some months was standing their dear god i thought i was gonna pass out this gorgious lesbian who had pull me thrrough some of the darkest times and made me smile was standing in front of me with a huge smile she said it didnt go well with her did it and then encircled me in a hug it was everything in my power yesturday not to start crying she has a beautiful spirit and is drop dead gorgious and yet i feel like i cant have her and thats okay well kinda :) Janay's (my best friend) husband is in liver failure because of the meds they have him on due to a heart condition and his main artery is 80% clogged :( they have a 2 yr old generally i am feeling pretty emotionally shitty