So... I ALMOST came out to my mom...

25 March, 2009 - 5:24am — l.enigma_ambulante

And of course, I chicken out.
She's upset with me because I couldn't tell her what was on my mind. She asked me if I was pregnant... And I said "Nooo... this would be like, completely opposite of that.." Then we went back and force on the "Tell me!" "I can't" thing for a good ten minutes.

I'm so scared to tell her.. she's the closest person to me in my life, and she'll be the first person I tell.

I just want to cry.. seriously. And I cried enough yesterday as it is.
I need this secret off my chest. It's such a burden, and it's becoming heavier each day.

I'm going to tell her tomorrow before bed, and show her the family acceptance website.
And I'm going to do it. It feels like I need to, for my own sanity.

Wish me luck, please..

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25 March, 2009 - 5:30am — underdarkness

Good luck, honey.

I hope everything goes well.

Just try to avoid coming out to your mom if she's angry at you. Wait until she's calm and just say, "Mom, I have something to tell you." Once you have her full attention just say it. Don't hesitate, that will only make it more difficult.

You'll feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders the moment the words escape your lips. "I'm gay."

Coming out is the best feeling in the world.

25 March, 2009 - 5:31am — Merric

Good luck. By now, she could

Good luck.
By now, she could be freaking so much about what she thinks it is that it'll come as a relief.
I know you can do it.

25 March, 2009 - 5:35am — l.enigma_ambulante

Ehh.. she fell asleep about

Ehh.. she fell asleep about ten minutes after I left her room. And I really don't feel like waking her up..
I'll just do it tomorrow, I suppose.
Hopefully she'll be in a good mood, so I can tell her!!
And thank you, guys!!

25 March, 2009 - 5:47am — taste the rainbow

My parents would freak about

My parents would freak about 10x more if I were to tell them I were pregers vs gay! But ack! You were so close! Tomorrow night then, will be your night.

Underdarkness is right,

If it's gotten to the point where you're finding yourself crying, you know that you've hit a road block. Before you can move on/make more progress, you need to tell your mom. Do it! There is no longer any point is depriving yourself the right to move on with your life!

Merric is right,

She knows you've got something to tell her, something that you're keeping from her. She's probably freaking out about what that something is.

Good luck gurrrl ;D

25 March, 2009 - 12:16pm — l.enigma_ambulante

Ah, well, she had me when

Ah, well, she had me when she was young, also, so she's tried to protect me from such things as horny boys... so maybe she'll be happy that I most likely will not have children?? Lol

I guess I'm kinda borderline on what she'll say.. I can see her saying "Thank you for telling me finally! I'm here to support and love you." and "WHAT?! You better be fucking kidding me." and getting pissed.
Because her moods just fluxuate that way. Gahhhh.

And now I have to go get ready for school / the dentist. Yay me.

Bleh. =/

25 March, 2009 - 3:30pm — Peregrine

my parents were bummed when

my parents were bummed when i told them, but everyone else kinda knew before i told them.

"One joy shatters a thousand greifs" - - - Chineese Proverb

25 March, 2009 - 6:52am — ShowMeLove

Good luck on coming out! I

Good luck on coming out!

I hope it all goes well :)

Go hence, to have more talk of these sad things. Some shall be pardoned, some punished. Never was a story of more regret than this of Juliet and her fair Juliet.

25 March, 2009 - 12:11pm — l.enigma_ambulante

Thank you thank youuu!

25 March, 2009 - 9:25am — jeff

Hmm...

You should have just told her you were pregnant, then she would have been relieved when you said nah, just kidding, I'm just a lesbian.

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"People who are happy are slugs... They do not move the human race forward."
-- Camille Paglia, on Oasis

25 March, 2009 - 12:10pm — l.enigma_ambulante

Oh god, that would be the

Oh god, that would be the kind of thing she would expect from me. XD

25 March, 2009 - 9:10pm — Siovampire

aww hunny...good luck! and I

aww hunny...good luck! and I mean it...it's terrifying coming out to your parents...
she will love you no matter what! i can promise you that. on the chance that she reacts negativly, she may seem angry or whatever...but she's not...just confused.
if she reacts positivly then...well....AWESOME!
good luck lovie and please, be bright and positive!!!

25 March, 2009 - 11:21pm — l.enigma_ambulante

=D

Thank you! =]

And I'm feeling pretty confident that she'll react nicely.. at least, not put me down. But I have a feeling she'll be dissappointed in me.. and that's what really hurts.
Eh. It's a chance I have to take.

Thank you guysss for the support!!! I don't know what I would have done / said if I hadn't found this site. =]

25 March, 2009 - 9:35pm — starsxfallxup