i'm new to here and was hoping i could get some advice.
here's the story.
i've been attracted to girls ever since i can remember - ever since i was 5 years old maybe - then in Junior High, i've had some boy crushes BUT also had an immense girl crush through out the entire 3 years.
i've been with women AND men - and i have enjoyed being with both.
i guess that makes me "bisexual" but i really hate that term and when i am dating a girl, i feel 100% lesbian but i never feel 100% straight when i am with a guy.
i haven't dated a guy in a few years now and have been really into gay clubs/bars lately and i feel so much like that's where i belong BUT occasionally i will see a really attractive man pass by and get a dirty thought.
Can I see myself settle down with a woman? yes. With a man? eh yes but i would rather settle with a woman - maybe it's because it's more "exciting" or maybe I simply watched too much L WORD .. but my attraction to women, like i said, has ALWAYS been there - even before there was attraction to men.
So what the hell is wrong with me?? I don't want to be "bi" - I think it's greedy and pretty much a bunch of crock. I feel so at home @ lesbian events yet feel kinda confused when I see a guy I find attractive (which happens very rarely, yet it still does)
Anyone with kinds words to offer??