When I came out to my Dad I was so proud of myself, and thats rare. I was like "Yes I told my Dad, I can tell anyone now!" Well turns out I wasn't the first to tell him. My sister T was. She got into a fight with him about her being a ungrateful, irresponsible bitch and she yells "Atleast I'm not gay like your youngest daughter!" Because me being gay is a bad thing when SHE was the first person I told and SHE said she SUPPORTED me. Fuck her. Honestly, I seriously hate my sister. But I hate her as much as I love her.
My other sister K, told me this when we were eating lunch together at a restaurant. She told me how about a week before I came out to my Dad, T had told him and then a couple of days before I came out to my Dad he went to K and asked her if it was true, and she told him she didn't know.
I almost started crying in the restaurant.
This explains why when I told my Dad he asked if it was a joke at first.
Am I crazy for being upset over this? I haven't said anything to T because my Dad told K not to tell me and K asked me not to kill her, even though she deserves it. T is one of those people that just needs to get the shit beat out of them, and everyone is just waiting for it to happen b/c she runs her mouth and is just a total two-faced bitch. And yes some of this is out of anger but its all true even if I wasn't angry. I am so on edge when I'm around T now. She doesn't know that I know. But she does know that I can beat the shit out of her. I'll let you guys know when I do, its been bound to happen for 16 years.
I got all crazy and almost depressed when I used to think about coming out to my Dad, especially the few days before I actually did. Turns out it was all pointless, not in the sense that he is accepting, but the fact that he didn't hear it from me. I've lost all sense of pride for it. I mean ya its good that he hear it from me but, its almost like asking a question you already know the answer to.
I really wish that I didn't get so upset over this. It makes me feel weak and vulnerable. And like I'm letting T have power over me, which is what she wants. Idk I just don't really have that many people that actually understand this stuff, and I'm not even sure I understand it.
Sry for the rant about hating my bitch of a sister.
I can't wait to get the out of this town.